I'm > you

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 21:32:16 GMT

im really upset.

RIP

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 02:04:20 GMT

we put cody to sleep today, i miss him.

its kelsey. remember me?

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 17:49:58 GMT

update!! man its been forever.

lets see, still at weston 8, but i got a promotion.

me and the boyfriend are amazing..still going strong, which is surprising for me lol.

tracy and i are in love. but of course that will never change.

i leave for ucf in 119 days, and my birthday is in 62.

im going to miss everyone at home.

bcc is annoying. but so far easy, i have an A in my algebra class, and an A in my stats class.

my graduation is may 24, not really looking forward to sitting there for a million hours as they call out names. but oh well.

nick and i are getting a puppy! i cant wait. i want to name him Dior, but he doesnt like that name. oh well

bye!

eleven minutes away

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 18:58:54 GMT

back when i had you and you had me, everything was alright. never realized how important you were to me. and i know that i'll never have you back. didn't mean to do what i did to you. didn't know that it would all go down the drain. and now i'm stuck here by myself in my room, wishing that you were in my arms again. now that you're not here, i've realized that i've fucked up again. and i know that i'll never have a second chance, so i guess i'm just a stupid fucking jerk.

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 05:09:22 GMT

bitches get stiches.

dont forget.

alot has happened..
no need to explain cus if you are my friend then you would obviosuly know it all bye now.

crazy ass times.
good and bad
but the good ones were amazing.

<333333

rip matt

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 00:33:36 GMT

they found matts body..it was in a canal on stirling.

hes been missing since the night before halloween..and oct 31 was the 1 year anniversary of his fathers suicide.

he was on 4 bars the last time someone saw him.

i really dont know what to say or do. im so lost right now

rip matt stirling
we love you.

lets sleep til the sun burns out.

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 03:54:01 GMT

im going out to lunch with jen tmrw; its going to be the first time we talk in over a year. i have no idea what to expect. but i do know we are not going to be bff or anything, and thats not what i want. i just want just to clear the air with things, and not be awkward around each other. i guess there is a reason why things stay in the past..they just arent supposed to be in your present. the new kelsey doesnt hold grudges, and forgives. ive grown up, ive changed, ive matured..im not who i used to be in the slightest.

i have my true friends, thats all i need. in 5 months im turning 18, in 6 months im graduating, in 7 months im moving to orlando, and in 1 year im moving in with my best friend.

these are the most amazing things i have to look forward too, and i can not wait for them to happen. the next 2 years are going to be the best ive ever had.

i quit weston 8..i have a new job, like i said, things have changed.
ive also come to terms that somethings, no matter how important to you, must end.

i really like where my life is right now, and i want to say thank you to those of you who have been there for me the past week or 2, you all mean the world to me.

girls.

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 23:23:17 GMT

ok, so ive been reading those stupid myspace chain letters..you know, the ones about what girls want.

heres an excerpt:

"When a GIRL stares at you, she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest, She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday, She wants to be
pampered.

When a GIRL says I love you, she means it.

When a GIRL says "i miss you", no one in this world can miss you more than that."

this is ridiculous!! but then again it may be just me.

ive told a guy i miss him, and i love him..but i didnt mean it.
ive laid on guys' chests..but only cus its comfortable; i do not want to spend the rest of my life with them, nor am i deeply in love with them.
i do not need a boy to call me 24/7, to lavish me with gifts,
to tell me how much they love me and cherish me all the time.

girls are crazy. they all say they want this in a guy, but once they find one that does these things, they call him a stalker and a creep. WTF!! i just dont understand. everything i want in a guy, everyone knows. i dont care about gifts, and stupid pet names. i dont care about any of this..all i want is someone who cares for me and wants the best for me.

if i wanted the things that are on all of these stupid lists, then id get my self a bitch, cus thats exactly what they are describing--giving up jackets when you are cold, holding doors/chairs, kissing me at all times possible, going where i want to go, doing what i want to do.

damn, thats a slave not a fucking boyfriend!!.

im so sick of how girls are. no wonder guys dont like you, you are materialistic selfish bitches and only want something that will benefit you in the end.

its a relationship. there are ups and downs, and sacrifices you make for one another.

everyone needs to just calm the fuck down with these stupid letters that describe "every" girl's dream, they make us sound so selfish.

but then again, i dont get hung up on some guys dick just because he called me once, or kissed me. i cant stand when girls will become obsessed with a guy because he said they were cute, or fun, or because they had hooked up. hes a guy, he wants your ass, not your psycho-obsessive personality that he gets with it.

girls, you really need to open your eyes, because you are so blind to how idiotic you are.

..sorry, i really needed to get that out.

i miss

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 00:18:59 GMT

i miss summer.

i miss emily, they way we used to be, seeing her everyday without fail.

i miss going to shows with her, dancing like idiots and having a blast.

i miss driving around aimlessly, because we can.

i miss dragging her bed to the middle of the living room so we can watch a movie and getting feathers everywhere. i miss phil getting so mad me made us clean it up.

i miss our starbucks time

i miss jacuzzi time

i miss sitting on the back of her car with backstreet boys blasting eating coldstones.

i miss leaving straight from work and going to her house to find star drunk off jack daniels chasing frogs and telling me has things he has to teach me, and emily having a margarita out of a plastic bowl.

i miss the gas station with the real coke bottles.

i miss going to weston 8 when she was working just to hang out with her.

i miss making fun of everybody.

i miss laughing until it hurt.

i miss our accents we used to talk in

i miss licking her vanilla filters.

i miss our first midnight drive, even though it was very unhappy.

i miss cookie and laudman, if you will.

i miss phil breaking my chi

i miss fourth of july

i miss summer

i guess the writer was right when he said all good things must come to an end, but this is just too damn good to let go of.

i love you emily kay annis!!

<33

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 03:23:49 GMT

today/night was pretty fun..got to hang out with a bunch of different people

shopping was a blast, and esp the part of trying to find a bright yellow mustang..good times

jimmy's was fun, but drinking is always fun

i wish i could have gone to danielles costume party with tracy and will =,(

i went out to dinner with chris and a few other people.

good times

my headhurts from all the wine i drank.

xox

<3

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 02:36:05 GMT

so i now know who my true friends are.

fuck everyone else.

thank you.

tonight i realized the 3 most important things in life
and those three are the only things i need..

yeah,
im not
pissed
im fucking
hurt and
when you
hurt me
i dont
forget,
and most
definitely
dont
forgive.

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 15:59:31 GMT

if i had to choose her or the sun, id be one nocturnal son of a gun.

best song ever.

love love love.

...

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 22:57:50 GMT

big surprise.

whatever.

all i want..

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 01:33:02 GMT

im sick of picking colleges, im sick of being stressed out over school

all i want is

someone to be there for me
someone to hug me, and kiss me
someone who can make me smile
someone who wants whats best for me
someone who actually cares

yeah i know, im crazy, its never going to happen

i was so close once, and its never going to come back.

so im home from ucf.

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 01:53:03 GMT

def vamps, whatev, youre stoop.

yeah enough said, punks.

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 04:03:59 GMT

**Bitches Get Stitches**

tonight was awesome, memories rock.

so we have a mission..and its going to be amazing.

make 'em squirm!!

god this is so awesome.

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 20:05:21 GMT

oh yeah..

UCF gave me a 22,000 dollar scholarship

i think they made a mistake

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 16:44:04 GMT

so last night was super fun..tracy and i went out to lunch then to the mall. we sorta decided what we were going to be for halloween, we have a few possibilities. after the mall we went to jamba juice and then to block buster. we rented robots and the ring two. then we picked up will in bfe went back to tracy's house ordered pizza and watched the movies. angie came over too and shes super cool.

yeah and this entire time i was trying to get ahold of emily..and failed miserably.

after i came home zach called, so he came over so i could say good bye cus hes going back to UF today. hes amazing and i love him.

i went to fau yesterday also to show my dad the school, its so nice.. but i kinda want to go to ucf and if a certain someone could go too, that would be amazing.

anywho, i have midterms tmrw and an english paper to write..

BYE

amazing

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 22:43:37 GMT

so im soo happy and here are my reasons:
1. im not going to school all next week (except for monday)
2. ZACH is coming home TOMORROW which is amazing cus i miss and love him so much.
3. im leaving next fri for orlando and get to hang out with jorge and jose and rob and oh man i am so excited!!.
4. on the 15th, im going to nicole/jimmys party and its going to be amazing.
5. and i have a date
6. well sorta like 3
7. next semester, the only class i have at cypress is teacher aide for ms moller and she is the coolest person ever..
8. I GET TO SEE ZACH..oh man the next few weeks is going to be amazing
9. tracy and i get to see each other at LEAST three times per week next semester cus we have math together.

everything is amazing right now!!

PS. if anyone needs a job and you are over 18..hit me up.

lots of love

< + 1 + 2 = <3

yes, this will work.

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 00:37:20 GMT

ok so ive decided

im moving to orlando but all my friends are coming with me.

its really not that big if a deal..just look at it as a shift north..nothing will change except where we sleep!!

im glad i figured this out..

now i dont have to be upset when i move with out emily and tracy, and everyone else cus they are all gunna come too

anyways, last night was super fun at starbucks..got to see tracy and em and matt and erick and star

super amazing.

k well im going out with the love of my life now!!

<333

yeah so what...i like to play games...its not like its a bad thing

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 22:44:54 GMT

why are guys so annoying??

sometimes i think guys can be worse than girls..some guys are attached just as much as some girls are.

i just dont understand it..we broke up OVER A YEAR ago..

and he still calls, and calls, and texts, and calls, and IMs, and sends flowers

and i dont pick up, and i dont respond, and i throw the flowers away

what the fuck..why cant some guys take a fucking hint!?!?

omg..its time he moves on, its getting borderline stalker-ish

so update..

ryan and i are talking again

i love him.

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 20:57:39 GMT

it just hit me...it JUST hit me..

in less than 9 months im out.

im moving, im going to college

im going to be hundreds of miles away from my best friends, its going to be so hard, and so scary, but at the same time im so fucking exciting

i dont know how im going to do it, im soo nervous.

steph just got her acceptance letter to ucf, and until the moment she told me, i never thought it was going to happen, but once she told me, once those words came out of her mouth, it hit me, it hit me SO hard..

im on the verge of tears. tears of excitment, and happiness, and yet im so fucking scared.

HOLY SHIT GUYS!!

IM GOING TO COLLEGE!!!!

UCF HERE I COME!!

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 16:20:15 GMT

i got my acceptance letter to UCF today

its so exciting, i called jorge right away.. he was happy =D

so far i can either go to ucf or fau..i still havent heard from fgcu yet.

i have no clue where to go, i want to stay close to emily and tracy, but if i do stay home i have to live at home, which i cant do

ucf would be amazing, 4 hours away from home..crazy parties, awesome college life

man, i have no clue

this is sooo hard

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 23:50:47 GMT

ugh, i cant leave my house cus im not allowed to drive when im on drugs

my mouth hurts and i look like a chipmunk

i want to get out

hoepfully ill get to see my bffs this weekend

i miss tracy alot, i never talk to her anymore, and that makes me sad

alright im gunna go take some more meds and pass out and hopefully get to talk to tracy..

xoxo

k-dawg
kelsky
kizzle
panda
cupcake
..etc

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 22:48:14 GMT

so wisdom teeth tmrw..

..ouch, def not looking forward to it.

..you wont be hearing from me unless you text me..

..im going to be very drugged up

wish me luck